I was sitting in the drawing room, and I was talking to her
friends and family. Suddenly she ordered me to pack my bags. She told me “It is
already 4 o’clock, and you are still sitting and chatting. Do not you remember
that you have to catch the train? If you do not want to go, then let me cancel
the tickets and you can talk for one more day”. I ignored her. She shouted
again at 4.30PM. I thought that she wanted to throw me out ASAP.
I could not ignore her this time. So I packed my bags, and
finished my tea. We left home at 5 PM. I was confident to get the train whereas
she was not. She started her Scooty and ordered me to place my ass on it. I
settled on the back seat of the Scooty like a king.
Scooty halted after 10 minutes. I thought this was the
moment when she would kiss me, but the choice of the place was little awkward.
It was in the middle of the market. I positioned myself to receive a kiss, but
suddenly she shouted and told me to get off the Scooty. Hell man, this girl
was crazy. Dude she wanted to buy some snacks for my travel. Oops, sometimes it
looks that these girls leave their brains at home so that it do not age
throughout their lifetime.
I was struggling to decide the bigger problem among two
problems that I had: First the train that I might miss, and second the ring
which was lying in my backpack. Technology rescued me here; as per Google maps,
I was not far from the railway station and there was enough time to reach to
there. But I did not tell her to relax otherwise I would not have some more time
to spend with her at station.
Flurry of questions hit my mind within a few moments. Where
should I propose her? Should I propose her before parking the Scooty or should
I ask her before entering the railway station or should I request her at the
platform? How should I propose Should I kneel down? Should I kiss her first, and
propose her later? All stupid questions attacked my innocent and blank mind. I
did not have answers. It would have been fantastic if I would have watched lot
of girlish romance movies. I might have caught couple of ideas at the moment of
crisis.
Anyway we reached to the station 5 minutes before the departure.
She told me to rush to the ticket window and find out the platform number. Though
I had other ideas, but due to her persistent demand and serious face, we rushed.
We reached to the platform and took deep breath.
I was wondering what if train was leaving and I had to catch
the running train, what were my options in that scenario. Should I have thrown
the ring to her and shouted instead proposing “Will you marry me”? Should I
have not boarded? Should I have passed the packet in her hand as a gift and
turned back to my seat without seeing her reaction? Now everything was merely a
thought because the train was yet still, and we had some time to talk.
I wanted to talk to her, but madam had some other plans. She
called up her friend and started telling her to rush the station if he wanted
to meet me. So in the meantime, I pulled the ring from my backpack. Without
realizing, I started kneeling down in-front of my princess. She was yet busy in
her call, but I was already sitting on one knee, and waiting for her to end the
call. For me world stopped for some time, People stopped talking, everyone
stopped walking. It was utmost necessary for me to tell her my feelings.
I told her “O MY lady, we know each other for quite a long
time. In this time I have fallen in love for you multiple times, hated you
sometimes, adored you few times, ignored you a few times, and hurt you many
times.”
“I loved you when you danced, smiled, talked, shrugged your
shoulders like stupid, and did innocent but childish things. I hated you for
your persistent love and unmatchable dedication which I could never return. I
adored you for your mental toughness, physical capability, and friendship. I
ignored you when I did not have enough courage to face you. I hurt you deliberately
sometimes and by chance other times."
“O MY JAANU, I was not able to make you my princess, but you
treated me as a prince. You have given everything to an autistic person who
does not value emotions. Your presence,
by my side, makes me perfect and pleases me more than anything.”
“Though I could not do much at this juncture, but I would
like to make you my prisoner so that no one else can feel your presence. O MY
DEAR if you accept my prison, would you accept this small token from your
warden and prisoner.”
She was stoned with dismay and disbelief. She hesitated a
little, but moments later she pressed her lips to mine. Crowd was enjoying the
act of adultery at the railway station. Within few seconds, train started
crawling and someone from train shouted “O Manjhanu, train chal di hai”. I
boarded the train and we departed.
It was the first
kiss, lasted a few seconds, of my life, that too from the most special lady in
my life.