Buck up, You got enough to face

We have sold our hopes to God.

We have sold our expectation to God.

We have sold our Goals to God.

He is building the chaos,

and yet we are part of it.

He is breaking things, 

and yet we are enjoying it. 

He can hurt the whole,

and yet we are hoping something out of it.

.

Then sometime we say

Why can not he stop making things?

Why can not he stop choosing things?

Why can not he stop breaking those chosen things?

and we feel that he isn't perfect.

He is some human who is enjoying the experiments.

He is some devil who is breaking the things.

He is some god who is making few broken things beautiful.

He is not gonna help us,

But He tells us, wake up you sneaky bastards.

I am enjoying your hopes,

but I am retarded with such hopes.

I am creating beautiful things,

But I am burdened with your singing.

I am managing the whole universe,

But I am overworked while managing each of you.

Buck up.

I have given you enough strength to fight.

I have given you plenty of mind to try.

I have give you plenty of things to make world right.

Let me rest, I am tired and stressed. I am tired and Stressed.

I am afraid

I have not spoken truth for a long time. I am afraid truth will hurt you, but still I am afraid lie will hurt me.

I have not sat idle for eternity now. I am afraid I will introspect and find something nasty, but still I am afraid I will never improve in life.

I have not found the answers of my questions. I am afraid to learn more, but still I am afraid of dying without knowing anything at all.

I have not visited lot of places. I am afraid of dying of boredom in my home, but still I am afraid of dying outside with someone known.

I have not understood lot of feelings of my dear ones. I am afraid to misunderstand them, but still I am afraid to disclose mine to understand theirs.

I have not taken lot of decisions. I am afraid of taking wrong decisions, but still I am afraid of suffering as I did not take any decision.

I have not told a lot yet. I am afraid of sharing it at my own, but still I am afraid what if there is no one left to ask.

I have not walked once without you. I am afraid to lose you, still I am afraid you will be gone once and forever.

When you have to go, then why should I worry.
When I have to go, then why Should I be sorry.

Yo God,
Give me some wings to fly.
Give me some fins to Swim.

I will fly, till I satisfy.
I will swim, till I am justified.
I will enjoy till I die.

भ्रमित हूँ

में व्यथित हूँ 

में दलित हूँ

में अपने कदमो की सरसराहट से भ्रमित हूँ ||

आफ़ताब हर सवेरे, इक मोती पिरोता है |

व्याकुल मन मेरा, इसे दिल में सजोता है |

राहों को अपनी, मोती के दम पर बनाता हूँ |

पत्थरों से टकरा कर भी, उसी राह में चलता ही जाता हूँ ||

निशा मेरे अंधकार में, दिया एक जलाती है |

मेरे सपनो में वो, जिंदगी का एहसास ले आती है |

एहसास से, अपने घावों पर मरहम लगाता हूँ |

हर नये घाव की रोज, नयी मरहम बनाता हूँ ||

जिंदगी में रोज, एक नया ठहराव रहता है |

पलक खोलते मूंदते, आफ़ताब निशा का इंतजार रहता है |

खुश होता हूँ रोज, जब नया संसार पाता हूँ |

पर हर नये संसार में, इतना इंतजार पाता हूँ ||

इसीलिए में कहता हूँ

में व्यथित हूँ 

में दलित हूँ

में अपने कदमो की सरसराहट से भ्रमित ही हूँ ||

Kavita College

Some time you feel great, some time you feel like crying. But all those emotions can be expressed well when you know the way to tell them.

It was when our college was gonna end in one month and we guys did not have any clues what to do next. People with different interests were doing different things... Drunkard community was busy in drinking daily. Players were sharpening there skills. and gapodi community members were improving there skills to argument. But all have one single pain of loosing the freedom, friends, ash and fearless environment. In such a mood i could write few words about my college...

बैठ जाऊ लब्जों की राह में, लिख्नने दिल की तरंगों को,
वक्त बचेगा नही बाकी, अपने आँसू पकडने को।
सजा के रखुंगा दिल में, इन लम्हों को यादों को
कोइ तो होगा कम्ब्खत, इस दर्द से अपना दिल लगाने को॥

पहले को याद करुं या करूं मैं आज को
फ़र्क पडता नही लगता कल की ही बात हो।
पल वो भी कुछ अजीब थे, लगता था हम बदनसीब थे
पल ये भी कुछ अजीब हैं, लगता है हम मौत के करीब हैं।
तब सोचते थे आ गये किस जहान में हम,
अब सोचते हैं, छुट जायेन्गे जिन्दगी से हम॥
ए दोस्त,
ये आना जाना तो तक्दीर है, खुदा की ढाली एक तस्बीर है
जो ना बदलती, ना बदलने देती हमको॥
वक्त बचेगा.....

मिलता एक अवसर, यदि बीता बदलने को
मिटा आते हम, मीठी सी उन हसीन बातों को।
बातों को
जो दर्द देंगी, तन्हाई में हर पल
रुलाती रहेगी मुझको, बनके दिल कि ये हलचल।
चला जाउंगा दूर मिटाने इस दिल कि तडपन को,
कोइ तो होगा कम्ब्खत.....

Liked it or not depend on you. But I love this.

Kkuch Hindi mein...

Few lines that i wrote in college... These lines were not supposed to come in public, but today when I was going through my dairy, I found these lines. Sharing these lines with you all.... Lets see how good can i write

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जनाजे पे हमारे उन्हे ना बुलाना
उसे बुलाकर उसका एक और गम ना बढाना|
आ ना पाएगी, वहाँ पर भी मिलने,
मर ने के बाद हमे युं ना सताना।।
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खुशनसीब हैं वो जो तेरा साथ पाते हैं,
हम तो वो दिवाने हैं, जो ख्वाबों में भी तुम्हे दूर पाते हैं॥
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लब्ज सिमट गये, तमन्नाये बच गई।
तुम ना आये मिलने, अब तो जिन्दगी निकल गयी।
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I know all are frustu mode but mein aisa hi hun....